I Feel Like Job Today

Last night I read the first chapter of Job. It was 12:44 in the morning, and I felt so good after I read it.
Today, I feel like Job.
Not in a good way. In the ashes way.
It’s not just one thing. It’s a pile-up. Messages read and never answered. More messages on social media left sitting there for weeks. A call that was supposed to happen today that never came. A fight in my family. Feeling ignored, feeling invisible, feeling mentally exhausted and drained down to nothing.
And if I’m honest, tonight I feel very sad and lonely.
Job understood that kind of day. He didn’t lose everything because he was a bad man. He was doing right, and it still hit him all at once. He sat in the silence, not understanding any of it, and he still went straight to God with it. He didn’t pretend he was fine. He told the truth about the pain.
That’s what I’m learning tonight: suffering is not proof that God has left you. And feeling forgotten by people is not the same as being forgotten by God.
While Job felt invisible down here, heaven knew his name. God knew exactly who Job was, and exactly where he was sitting.
So if you’re reading this and you feel like Job today — if you’re staring at messages nobody answered, if you’re tired of being strong, if you feel lonely in a room, in a family, in your own mind — I want you to hear this from somebody who is sitting there tonight too:
You are seen by God, even when you feel unseen by everyone else.
You don’t have to fake being okay to come to Him. Job didn’t. Bring Him the honest version. The sad version. The drained version. Go straight to Him, just like you are.
I’m still here tonight. Still believing tonight. Not because today was good, but because He is still God on a Job kind of day.
— Reverend Rob Connor

Faith, Job, Loneliness, Encouragement, Christian Living